FALLING OFF THE WAGON?
I've been working hard lately.
The last two or three weeks (at least) I've arrived at work without the familiar feeling of dread that hung on me like a neck tie for the past two years. Considering the bile I have vented here and elsewhere over that time it seems difficult to reconcile for not an awful lot has changed.
Anyway, today is the first time I've had a recurrence of the sinking feeling. This feeling reminds me of what has gone before and why it has. It is the unavoidable WHY? that you can try to hide from, to surpress, to belittle but ultimately fail to evade.
The same old questions back on repeat as the needle gets stuck again. These same old questions that I still can't answer.
One thing is for sure - expect more frequent updates.
I've been working hard lately.
The last two or three weeks (at least) I've arrived at work without the familiar feeling of dread that hung on me like a neck tie for the past two years. Considering the bile I have vented here and elsewhere over that time it seems difficult to reconcile for not an awful lot has changed.
Anyway, today is the first time I've had a recurrence of the sinking feeling. This feeling reminds me of what has gone before and why it has. It is the unavoidable WHY? that you can try to hide from, to surpress, to belittle but ultimately fail to evade.
The same old questions back on repeat as the needle gets stuck again. These same old questions that I still can't answer.
One thing is for sure - expect more frequent updates.
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